Up and Down, Back and Forth...The Roller coaster called Life

So I've decided to move into an apartment with my friend Lorena. It turns out we are both looking for a place and we have decided to join forces. I'm really excited because she seems to be really cool about my cats and everything which was my number one concern with having a roommate. She even came over and Violet flipped over in her lap. I looked at a really cute apartment today for a very reasonable price in Hollywood. It has a completely different feel than my current apartment does, but I liked it.

Paoli has driven an extreme amount in the last two days..last time I spoke to him he was almost to Louisiana. Yesterday afternoon, he was in this LA. He called me struggling today. It hurt to hear him so sad. He called me later with a much better attitude and this made me happy. I talked to him for a really long time though...and when we got off the phone, it hit me. I miss him. I shed a few tears..prayed for strength and am now turning on an old movie. It's so lovely to talk to him because he really truly gets me.. but it's equally as frustrating because it would be nice to have that in a life partner. I'm grateful that I'll always have him as a best friend, but it will just take some adjusting. I'm just happy to have experienced that sort of bond and understanding in this lifetime at all because I think it's pretty safe to say that plenty of people don't.

There's a great quote by Diana Ross that I think of a lot when I cry.. "I cry not for myself, but for those who've never felt the joy we've felt."