Day 7

So day 7 was actually yesterday but I didn't get the opportunity to write... So I'll catch up now. It's safe to say I probably shouldn't be driving in this time of my distress... Haha! In the past week, under no influence of pills or alcohol, I have backed into a parked truck (the name of the person's truck, i shouldn't publish, it was a bit of a hit and oh shit!, drive off!); I literally pulled out making a right turn and clipped the corner of a man's leg. I would have killed he and his gay partner both had my mom not been in the car screaming STOP!! I drove probably 15 miles with the parking brake on, while getting out at every stop light to check and see if my tire was flat??? To top this all off, I completely lost the car last night after a day of shopping. We had to stop at every level of the parking garage and press the panic button to find it. 

Other than needing to have my license temporarily revoked, I'm doing alright. I had a great day with my mom yesterday. I got the cutest new clothes, laid by the pool, and had a wonderful dinner! I can't explain how much dessert I have had since this happened. It seems to help. In the dimly lit restaurant last night, the sadness set in. Mom and I were discussing how quick a whole life can change. I'll be feeling fine and then it all hits me how different my life is right now and will continue to be. I know a large part of it is just taking time to get used to. Right now, it feels shocking. She told me she was a little surprised at how well I was doing and that it still might not have really hit me... But I truly think the worst is over. Now it's only moments, maybe hours of sadness, when before it was weeks and days. 

Anyway, I picked up the David Sedaris book Naked yesterday. Ha, I love the way that sounds. Anyway, today is volleyball day and I'm taking my mom! Exciting! 

Love, love, love.....