Day 8

Today was pretty good, I reckon. My mom and I had a good brunch at The Sagebrush Cantina. We talked again about relationships because of course my mind is boggled by them right now. Of course, it's not something that I'm really concerned with for right now, but I do hope I find one in the future. I'm trying to get through my head that while every relationship will have its issues, the right one will not hurt so bad so many times. I wonder if this is a realistic approach. Am I sick for thinking that they don't get any better than that? I told my mom how weird I am about having sex with people and how I'm concerned about ever entering another relationship because of it.  I feel that since I am 22...when you date, there is this pressure to have sex pretty quickly into the relationship. I talked myself out of that because I guess I really don't have to do shit I don't want to. It's a very long way off from now but I'm sure if it will ever be right with someone else, I'll know. I also have these thoughts about how freaking skeptical of everyone and their words I'm going to be for a while. I do not think Paoli was ever lying to me when he told me he loved me and wanted to be with me forever. I think he truly did feel it but then time passed and he didn't feel it or he talked himself out of it for whatever reason. It just makes me a bit nervous to ever hear that from anyone again. Yeah they may mean it at the moment but oh how quickly it can change. Ughhhh. Anyway enough of the inner workings of my silly brain. None of that stuff really matters. What matters is I made it through today, which is all I'm trying to do about now. 

So....we did a bit more shopping after brunch and then headed down to Venice to meet my friends for volleyball. Finding parking sucked and we saw a homeless being way too rough with his poor dog, so that kind of ruined our moods for a little while. The sun, sand, and sailboats helped turn that around, though. We didn't get to play all that long but my mom took some fun pics of us! After volleyball we had  a great dinner and the best Blue Moon on tap I've ever had. 

My mom can't get used to the time difference... so she's asleep already and it's only 8:30. So...I'm off to watch some LA Ink and dream about all the tattoos that I want and shouldn't get. 

Nighty night.