Holes

I have no idea what day it is at this point. In fact, I'm not sure I know what planet I'm on. My whole entire life has been flipped. I don't really understand it all. I feel like I'm living right. I feel like I'm treating my body, my brothers and sisters, and my planet with the love and care that a good Christian would. Why can't I follow a path that doesn't freaking fall apart on me every six months? I call this post Holes because that's what my life is filled with at this moment. Yes, I know "This too shall pass...." but right now, I'm hanging in mid air. So I lost my boyfriend... I was just readjusting to life without him and patching the HOLE that was in my heart. Then, I wake up for work Monday morning to a job that felt very secure..only to be sat down and fired. ME? FIRED?? Dude, I was employee of the year at my last job?!? Anyway, that explains the massive HOLE in my bank account. Lastly, the day that I got fired and the night before my mom went home.. we got in a huge fight. The blame is neither here nor there.. everything just got too overwhelming for both of us to deal with. She's going through a hard time herself. As a result.. there is a huge HOLE in my wall because I kicked the shit out of it. We got over it... and expressed to each other our feelings in a better way..which I wish it would have been all along. We are both really grateful that the cards that we have been dealt are much much better than some of the alternatives. So now..the search is for a new job. It's okay because I hated that one anyway.. it was really more of a pride issue. No more HYPOCHRISTIAN for a boss. :)